friends "forever and never"

its hitting you again.
it is.
the cheap hammers banging.
the last drag.
you chuck it out of the window.
its too late to smoke.
you're dull and your eyes hurt.
i wish you would stick around.
your the last one, my last drag.
help me,
cry a bit.
i will hold you again. i promise.
later?
fine.
"the god's good in your head"
or somethin like that.
can't racall what you said.
goddammit.

the world's a half pitcher of dreams
and you cut them to get what you need.
don't be sorry.
be.
you hurt.
like hell.
and you shiver in the wind like the last leaf in a dying tree.
stop smiling now.
fuck! that smile.
silence after the gunshot.
feed off my fresh wounds...live.
i love you.
i will hurt you.